Roots

I was getting ready for bed when my husband laid down next to me to talk. A lot had been on my mind, mostly that I wasn't happy. We started talking about why and it came down to the fact that I haven't accomplished anything or been the best in anything. For me is began to boil down to my running.

In college I injured my IT band and haven't been able to run for than 2 miles without it hurting. As a result, the rest of my life changed. Not being able to run was probably one of the most devastating things for me because I love running. As a result, I've gained weight and have not been happy. I don't have those endorphins firing off.

Jon and I decided to try yet again to get started on a routine for running. He's going to help me get started. I want to be a runner again, but I'm scared. We agreed to do a couple things. First - I can't compare myself to my previous self. This one will be hard, but I can try. As a way to adhere to that rule I decided I couldn't use a stop watch until I was able to run 3 miles without walking. And second, I have to listen to Jon when he says we're going to exercise - no excuses.

I'm starting small. Starting with a mile and getting to where I can run that without walking. Then increasing it to 2 miles. Once I can get that down, I'll increase it to 3 miles. One I get to running that, I'll add a stopwatch and start to train to become competitive.

I'm excited but scared to get started. However, running seems to be at the root of my unhappiness.

Difficult Time

I have had such a difficult time exercising. I don't really have an excuse other than laziness. I'm going to try and stay committed. It looks like Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays will be my exercising days, at least as far as going to the workout room is concerned.

I've been trying to do workout videos in the morning - 10-minute abs and 10-minute buns, but I find myself being way to tired to do them. I was getting up at 6 to do those and then go on a walk, but it's been too cold in the mornings to go for walks. Now I'm going to adjust my wake up time to 6:30 and see if I can make a go of that.

Hopefully I can find a way to get motivated and stay committed.