Meant to be Ordinary

Call it a case of the Mondays. Call it depression. Call it whatever you want; it doesn't change that fact that some of us are just meant to be ordinary. To live ordinary lives. Not doing anything spectacular or noteworthy, just ordinary.

When I married my husband I told him I would move wherever he got a job because his career opportunities are limited. (There's not a lot you can do with an outdoor recreation degree.) We lived in western Washington for 6 months until we moved to Spokane, WA where we currently live. I found a job working as an accountanting assistant (seems beneath me considering I have an accounting degree). I feel like I've settled for a job that doesn't make me feel at all significant.

Is there something better out there for me? Something I would enjoy more than sitting at a desk doing journal entries and tying down financials?

I've often thought about what I would do if I were to lose my husband. One thought that constantly comes to mind is to move to L.A. and getting a career as an actress. I see myself getting a leading role right away and making a great deal of money right off the bat. I envision myself flirting with a handsome, talented actor. I see my picture on the cover of magazines, my high school classmates being jealous of my success, hanging out with other actors and actresses. I envision myslef walking into a random store and hearing the whispers of the presence of a famous actress being there. Of the crowds of people asking for my autograph or a picture with me. I see myself walking the red carpet in a gorgeous purple dress (afterall, purple is my favorite color).

But then my eyes open and I realize I still live in Spokane working as an accounting assistant. While I'm happy I'm still married to an amazing man, I'm dissatisfied with my ordinary life. I realize that I don't have to be rich and famous to be unique and significant, but it's hard to see anything but an ordinary life when I look at where I am at. Maybe someday I'll be somebody. Most likely I will still be just ordinary.