Sitting at my desk, I transferred the info from the receipts to the checkbook watching the balance dwindle. Finally I get them all written down. $39.92 left. I call my husband to let him know.
Me: "Hey babe, whatcha doing?"
Jon: "Coming back from Cabella's with Dave."
"Yeah? What are you guys going to do now?
"Go eat lunch."
"Leftovers?"
"No......we're going to get some cheap food."
"Well just so you know we have about $40 in our account. I had to pay the Citi card. So you're going to be spending money we don't really have to be spending?"
"Um....."
"That's fine I guess." ("Not really," I think.) "Just don't spend a lot. Money is tight right now. Our check for church hasn't cleared yet, so we'll be fine." ("But it will clear.")
The conversation ends with me giving in to his pleading to go out to eat. However, I know that we already went over budget on dining out this month, mostly because we did more traveling this month.
As a result I'm more stressed about money than I was earlier. I know God will provide, but it would help if Jon stuck to the budget we made. In order to save money, I've stopped going to Starbucks, I've stopped suggesting we go to Dairy Queen (not that we don't go, Jon suggests it and ice cream is my weakness), I've stopped buying clothes and shoes, and I've only bought the necessities when we go grocery shopping. I feel like I've been making an effort to save money and stay on budget but Jon hasn't, and it is so frustrating!
I've decided that tonight I am going to pull Jon aside and talk to him about how I'm feeling in regards to money. He knows I constantly worry about money and whether we will have enough, but I think most times he just shrugs it off as "God will provide" and doesn't realize how he can reduce his spending to stay on budget. Tonight I need to make him understand.
Pray for me as I try to show him what he is doing and how it is affecting our bottom line and our relationship.
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